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Updates & Thanksgiving

As year 2007 comes to a close, just a quick look back and some updates.

I’m having internship, as mentioned before, and so far its a nice, fun and learning experience. The environment at work, feels more like my final project in poly than my industrial attachment I had.

Who whould imagine going on Facebook is my job?

My 1st year 1st semester results released on boxing day. I must say I’ve been satisfied, that my grades is satisfactory, of a very average CAP, that would be a yardstick for my performance keep me, and hopefully to keep me humble and work harder. Now what is left is to reconsider what path to major on, and to decide the modules for next year.

Psalms 47:4 Delight thyself also in the LORD; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

I’ve coded an integration that laid out my blog posts in 2007 on Timeline using MetaWeblogApi last night, but time is running tight so the post on it might just have to wait to the new year. Both using that and K2’s ajax archive navigation makes it easy to recap what have been done this year.

Although it seemed not much is done in the year, time passes faster than that I feel, one single important event is that I’ve stepped through quickly from my army stage into my study stage.

Too Exhausted to Sleep

was what my sis said we would be on the way back from Sentosa.

My last exam paper ended today near 8pm after a 2.5 hours struggle against time. I spent over an hour trying to work out 1 qn just to fumble through 32 questions in the remaining 1-and-a-half hour.

So after exams, took a bus to HarbourFront and took this (MRT-like) train ride from Vivo into Sentosa for my first time. At least 2 years since I was last there and there are many changes.

Having no proper meals and starving already, I had my fill stuffing myself with pizzas, cakes and more.

Everyone took this Luge and so I bought the tickets to go up with everyone for their 2nd ride. The skyride was nice! You can to see the skyline and the coastlines, see your feet go above the roads and and trees, and sitting on a seat held on only by a cable. So people scared of heights, do be prepared. Then from the top, the luge is a little mixture with Go-Kart and a bicycle or skateboard. Just gravity, steering and brakes. I happened to record my coordinates using GPS, but in order not to clutter this post, the GPS stats and photos will be in the next post!

There’s tons of stuff I have on my TODO lists (infact many of them thought of in the midst of my exams), with some on the priority like replying emails, filling my lecture notes for this semester so on…

Anyway I’ll be hitting up Malaysia tomorrow night, be back for the Orchestra camp, then JSM family camp, then enjoy Christmas and New Year plus perhaps work a few additional projects.

My life’s excitement always starts after exams!

In Memory of Reuben Kee

A talented designer, potential game developer, 3d modeler,
a brilliant pianist, an aspiring game composer and musician,
a team leader, a sportsman,
a friend.

Reuben Kee

I couldn’t remember exactly where we met, but perhaps for a reason-music and an object-piano, we got to know each other and shared our interests.

In my faint memories, I believe I was a freshman in NYP, while Reuben was a year my senior, and we were going to perform for a graduation ceremony. He was playing solo on the piano, while I was playing in an ensemble.

“Are you nervous when you perform?”, I asked.
“I do not admit I’m nervous”, was his answer, and as time go by I understood more of that statement.

Both of us were in NYP’s Piano Ensemble, where he was the President before he graduated. We had the chance to perform in numerous occasions, and perhaps his biggest accomplishment was composing and directing a musical. Although his piano training stopped at grade 3, the skill he displayed with despite imperfect techniques at the piano always impress and win crowds. His towering figure and hammering with fast speed on the piano makes me relate him to Rachmaninoff. Surprising, despite his size, he way he speaks to me is usually soft and in fluent english. The music he played were usually his own arrangements from computer game music and anime soundtracks. His natural talent for music allowed him to play by ear, and coordinate different rhythms in both his hands with ease. At his home, he showed me works he perform and create on his Yamaha Clavinova. After Reuben’s National Service, he updated me that his career path was composing music.

Perhaps for one thing others might not remember for, but I remember he was the one who often designed beautiful posters, published them, and pinned over the notice boards in NYP, not only for piano ensemble but for the Dragon Boat club. Not only was he active in piano ensemble, and dragonboat training, he joined the cannoning activities in NYP. A reason why he enjoyed dragonboating and the training, he told me that an advantage he gain from the training was he gain much built and weight, much fitter than the skinny him when he was in secondary school. During his NS days, he continued to row in SAFSA, and he said he will continue to row.

During our NYP years, he would be training at least 3 times a week, and walking through the sports complex I usually see him training, and we would exchange greetings. Academically, we were in different schools- he was in School of Design, I was under IT, but we often pass each other at labs. Therefore, the interests we shared went beyond music and sports, and eventually much into design and technology. A little thing we shared in common, was playfulness. However, in NYP unlike usual ourselves, both of us experienced getting into trouble with the school discipline separately. In his case, perhaps he had to extend his stay in poly for a few more months.

There’s was a time, despite both our busy project days (Reu was working on a game for SAF for his final year project), we meet up and he showed me his lab and his work. I showed him how he could access his work back from home. I couldn’t remember because of that he helped me model a simple 3d teddy bear, when I was then still unfamiliar with 3d Studio Max.

It was interesting with the different paths we took, we still bump into each other in occasions during our NS days like traveling to our respective camps.

He must had his way to deal with his popularity, since he never put me aside and tell me he’s busy. His works he post online had great demand that he always faced trouble with exceeded bandwidth on his webpage. I introduced another friend (from lab4games.net now lab4solutions.com) who was able to provide the capacity in storage and bandwidth he needed and his site www.reubenkee.com stayed on until now. On his sites, are his recordings of his music, see some of his flash in action, and links to his mugen interest, and at the most recent, youtube videos. He devoted time to mugen, its a 2d vs style fighting engine (like street fighter) and he managed to create one of the best AI (artificial intelligences) for the characters (and perhaps only his reflexes could defeat his AI he created).

There could be much more to say, and much more to know by reading the papers and from others who would know him better than I do, just that this is a account of our friendship.

On the news flash the shocked many Singaporeans, was that 5 members of national dragon boat team were missing after the boat capsized. They had completed a race in Cambodia for a festival, a wave hit them, and all fell into the water. 17 members were rescued and treated for injuries. On Sunday, bodies of 5 missing members were found.

That night the bodies were found, I logged on friendster (something I do only in a blue moon) and there were 3 observations.
1. There were hundreds of farewell messages for him.
2. He posted a photo of us which I did not remember seeing it before.
3. Last login showed: “2 Days Ago”.

me and reu

When thinking of Reu, I wondered how was his final moments like. Perhaps the impact was enough to give a knock out, perhaps a current were dragging them, perhaps fatigue after race render him unable to keep afloat. 12 years ago, I experienced drowning, but I was saved and it was my turning point in life. During those moments, my life flashed through my mind. I do not know however what exactly reu experienced because it wasn’t me, but now 1 thing is certain. For reu, it was his final point in life on earth.

I know not how to carry on in this post, so I would quote my friend’s post after someone she knew passed on.

It reminded us of how fragile we are even when we think we’re invincible at times. We so often assume we’ll live to a ripe old age, but in reality, our lives are not in our hands.

Life is short. Do you know where you’re headed? I sure hope you do.

For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appeareth for a little time, and then vanishes away (James 4:14).

Finally, we ought to know and remember

Salvation belongeth unto the Lord

(Psalms 3:8)

Excerpts from my Writtings in TAD

Write up on “My Defining Moments in SAFAC”

“I feel it is not easy for me to define my dearest moment in SAFAC. Many precious moments that invoke my memories, thoughts and feelings, as if they were gems I wouldn’t want to lose any”…

…”life started in SAFAC as an ATT trainee at SOA in Dec 05. In 3 months in about 20 other ammo techs to be, we went through”…

“Not long after I was welcomed to TAD, I had my first cohesion”…

…”I feel privileged and am grateful for my high-level NDP fireworks involvement”…

…”Although I had just spent about a year in SAFC, I have gain a large amount of knowledge and experience. One of the reason is because of the people around me”…

“Going back to the main topic of “my most defining moments”, if I really need to give an answer, it would be my ndp involvement and my wits experiences. However I do not wish to stop there. I would give all my enthusiasm each day of having the optimism of which that day would be fruitful, memorable, learning and unforgettable experience I would always remember”

Signed off hastily then

211106
CPL J0shua K0o
TAD

Message on the last day in camp (that’s today)

“Dear all,

The time has come for me to part. This would be my last day in here and I would like to take the opportunity to say thanks. I don’t intend for this message to be touchy feeling but I love to recall the wonderful moments I had in TAD quickly”…

… “and I look back, I always feel the happiness with a slight tinge of sadness in them”…

“My memorable and exiting moments briefly”…

“Memorable duties”…

“Memorable cohesions”…

“As how I feel, time has caught up with me, and its time to say goodbye.” [Thanks to a big list of people, and yet people still ask me why their names are not inside ;)]…

Signed off with the greatest haste,

“Best regards with lots of love and laughters,
3SG J0shua K0o”

Last Guard Duty

“How are you feeling now that you competed your duties?”

“Should be feeling good”

“I would be flying if it were my last duty”

A little talk between a superior of mine and I after my last night duty. Though I don’t really know him well, the previous occasion we had duty together, we talked about life, and past and future of our camp. The past was a little of history lessons, as we recall the people and culture way before I came. The future as we foresee how the people and system were like, and he mentioned I would be missed like a couple of NSFs who served their time well with him.

Frankly, I wasn’t feeling much, yet- there seemed to be a little vacuum, not much excited happiness nor sadness. Perhaps I had been numbed.

I recall vividly the commotion and consequences my “upper study” had after getting into trouble on his last duty. I myself wanted some simple routine stuff, perhaps “slow and steady”, perhaps a “just get over and done with” attitude. No steamboats, no celebrations, no sabotage, just plain routine stuff with a handful of less exciting personnel. At least it ended with a round of applause for me as we fall out.

Now I recall, a year and a half: 18 months with take 6 duties each would sum up over 100 duties. Through the duties I rose through ranks and appointments, from simply carrying out orders to carrying responsibilities.

Imagine 24 hours 100 days, but just take 10 hours, I would be 1000 hours. Actually as the days past, you wouldn’t feel the huge amount of time, but now 1000 hours is not too little either.

In no particular order, during the “spare time”, I..
Slept - Probably huge amount of time
Played games - Chinese chess, Sudoku, Risk, Uno, and other “team games”
Read - Newspapers, Magazines, Browse the Intranet, Novels, Books
Talk - Share some jokes and quizzes, getting to know each other better and stuff
Watch - TV, some CDs and DVDs occasionally

When I started out, I was perhaps more “garang” or ambitious.. did exercise when I had the time, brought a couple of books (esp. non-nonfictional war books).. and did some planning and learning for work related stuff and others.. over time the drive seemed to vanish, and there are certainly things I thought I could have do better - finish a couple of uncompleted books, getting to know others better and sort of stuff, pass down more of my skill and so on…

Anyway that’s for looking back, time pass quickly. I mark the end of my duties, finishing reading the war(ww1) story “Four Weeks in the Trenches”, by Fritz Kreisler (a composer and violinist) and writing this.