kepo-ing Zz85

I’m a PC addict But at least Tuesday was a day of PC soberness for me. Today almost is, until now. In a week to come, I would get more time away from my pc. (Unless the Netherlands National Service exemption for Internet addiction is applied here too)

Today while I was packing my room…

…Dusts, Boxes, Plastic bags, Papers, Lecture notes, Sketches, Cds, Floppy disks, Files, Folders, Keys, Key chains, Name cards, Souvenirs…

What is more amazing is…

6 Bags (Imagine just my room, I have even more in the store room. The last time I had a stock count of my clothing was over 200. The cloths keep piling up because I haven’t grow for some time)
Old Photos
Birthday cards
Autograph books (Yes it girl-dish but I have some)
Broken Parts

And the worst..
Journals and Ideas, spanning over various notebooks, organisers, diaries. Could have fill half a big box with that.

Here’s what. I’m bad memory. Even worst, unorganised, lazy, untidy. Hence all these pile up more and more, making my room the untidiest in the family.

Really, I do have bad memory, things passed few days ago and I wont remember (Unlike my father who can remember dates associated to events mentally). Could be the reason why I scribble bits and pieces of my thoughts, my life everywhere. Possibility the unconsciously I think, if I never write it down, and I try to recall a passed event, or what had I been doing over a period of time, I wouldn’t want to feel, “No I cant remember anything, I have no impression, was that a dream?”, and then think, “Is my life a dream?”.

Sometimes this feeling gets to me when I experiencing events. I think “Is this happening? Did I seem to envision this in my dreams?”. And this, could be dued to psychic problems, bad memory, or some gifts of prophecy.

I’m trying to change. I want to put childish things behind me. One day, our lives will be reviewed like a film frame by frame. Important thing is how would I live it?

Bad habits die hard. Dumping my thoughts, feeling into this blog, is this the new trend or the in-thing for youngsters? Or issnt this just my old habits, except with the additional use of technology.

Technology can fail us. It failed painfully me couple of times. In a way I abuse technology, using it to dump data I have (and grew to rely less on my brain). At least 4 times, harddisks burn out on me. That pains me even more, because of the collection I have is more than the stuff other would usually have. Today I received an RMA-ed maxtor harddisk after waiting for perhaps over 5 months.

Getting sidetrack again, I’m going to install and test this hard disk, and install Ubuntu on it, at the same time, adjust my neon lights cooling system.